This update will be posted with a photo of me only. I had resolved long ago to no longer post photos of guys or boyfriends or dates or potentials or anyone who happened to fall in the background of a photo so as not to get my families hopes up. What?! Could Tawny have possibly found someone??? At her age???? I went against that resolve and now I must rescind those pictures, taking with me with I know to be true. That is-- he was not the one for me.I have moments-- sometimes days-- of peace where I feel assured that everything is as it should be in and to trust God's timing and not mine. It took me 27 years (perhaps a little less, but this long to say it out loud) to realize that I am most happy and content being with me. With that realization, I started eating better, working out, going back to school... all so that I could be the best version of myself without anyone else. I love my family and friends, but my identity is constantly being refined with "who am I when no one is looking???" So even though I joke about my age, I think the best years are now.
With God I can go anywhere, do anything, and have purpose. My future is unsure, but at least it is exciting!
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Tawny - I've been praying for you and will continue. How are your plans coming for going back to school? Any chance that you'll be closer to us?
Love,
Aunt Marlene
This was a great post!! Your thoughts are fantastic and the perfect way to live!! Perhaps I no longer have "room" to talk now that I'm married, but spent 25.5 fantastic single years vowing not to live in such a way where I would look back later and wish I had done something differently. Next time you are in the PDX area, we should get together ;)
That was an awesome post! You are in a very good place. I've been going through the same thing. As someone said, "the best is yet to come!" Especially with God leading and molding us into the women we need to be. (I'm a friend of one of Alysun's friends)
It is amazing who blogs brings together. I just saw April's post (a friend of my friend Hillary who lives in San Diego). Also, Carrie Jean is back in our lives! Too cool. I am so happy that you are learning contentedness. Honestly, you will need it at every place in your life: single, married, with babies, and completely sleep deprived.
I love it! I looked for a page for Kari, but she must be a quiet observer to other blogs :) That's ok, you tell her that I only got really into recently. I too am thrilled that its brought us all together-- we need the support!
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